Thursday.

OK, so I have a really scarey dream last night.

I was at college working really hard on my final degre project and everything was going well. I was enjoying myself and getting loads of work done.
Then one morning I work up and went into college and everyone was looking at me and whispering about me. I asked one of my friends what was happeing. They were confused and asked if I had forgotten the day before.
It turns out that I had gone completely mental in my fianl exam and not finished my piece. I had had a breakdown half way through and just lost it. This had meant that I had failed my degree.
I had no reccolection of this at all and everyone was really worried about me.
I was going mad. I had had such an episode that it had been wiped from my memory. I was so scared and upset. I would have to start the entire thing again.

I was actually really scared when I realised it was a dream. I don’t like having dreams like this. I think it was an unconcious sign that I am not doing enough college work. I am going to rectify this tonight. I am going to do loads of work. I think I am going to put together a complete stamp research book. Also I am planning to get loads of social problem research off the net today. I hope this stops my crazy dreams.

Yesterday I wanted to find out all the perameters for giving blood. I don’t think I am clean living enough to give blood and don’t really want to do it but I would like to know exactly why I cant.
SO this mornign I went ot the giving blood website and found out all the reasons why you cant give blo. There are like a million of them including:

Being too old and too young.
Having just had a baby.
Having had anal or oral sex with a man even if using a condom.
Having used antibiotics in the last few months.
Having a cold.

And the really odd one -

Having been had sex for money or drugs.

I don’t think this is quite fair. I could have had protected sex and been given money for it and be completely fine. I just don’t get it.

Today Stoke Newingtron was mentioned in my book. I am really near the end and the murders have trailed off. I think the rest is going to be a rollercoaster of death and drama. Oh, I hope so!

Magic moment of the day - finding out that you cant give blood if you weigh under 7 and a half stone. I new goal.

Shit moment of the day - Being really poor and having to buy cigys on my credit card, again.

Have fun and remember…it takes a lot of money to look this cheap, so send your dontaions in now.
Russ.